On Gifts

I have something embarrassing to admit - I have never been a good “gift accepter”. 

  This is because it takes me just a bit to process the wonderfulness of receiving a gift. 

  This is not due to ungratefulness- but astonishment. 

     This delayed reaction, while it can be frustrating does allow  me to sit in my gratitude alone. 

During this time,  I can read the books I have been given, smell the flowers I have received, bathe  in the luxurious oils I eyed at store once, I can touch the earrings that I posted about on social media. 

   My private practice of enjoyment of these material items is a sacred ritual that unites me with the giver each time I enjoy the items. 

    It is because of this sacredness that I will no longer be posting them on socials. 

 I have done a bit in the past and it never felt quite right.  

It was only through a bit of journaling  and thinking about why I felt like I “had to”  do something that didn’t feel authentic to me. 

       I love that in this industry we can choose whatever works best for us, and that “have to”   feeling can be catalyst for examination and sometimes change.